Shahdi Joon – Today was one of those days that if I had used all the cuss words in every language I speak, it would not have been enough to express my frustration and anger with life’s bitter injustices. Had I run into the ‘creator’ today, who knows what would have happened to him/her!! For the first time ever in the last seven months, the thought did occur to me, even though momentarily, that maybe you were right and there was too much pain in this world. But, then my fighter spirit rose up again to re-focus my mind on life and the living!
I do not know whether to thank you, the modern medical field, or both, for making my friend’s surgery a success today. I just hope you, as her guardian angel, can bargain for an extra 20+ years for my friend:-) It is ironic that on the seven-month anniversary of your passing, another person close to me, with a golden heart as big as yours, had to fight for her life. Not that I was distracted, even for a moment, from missing you, but I was simply flabbergasted at the seemingly unlimited tolerance of pain and bad luck by both myself and my friend. Is there really a limit to how much hardships one can tolerate in life? I know you thought you had reached ‘your’ limit but if you had heard the life story of my friend, it might have given you a totally different perspective on the problematic issues in your life. Alas, it is too late to tell you her story.
Today, as I was standing by my friend’s hospital bed caressing her hair to calm her frightened and anguished soul, I was thinking to myself about how lucky she was. It is very strange indeed to think of a person just diagnosed with cancer as lucky! Of course, compared to a healthy person leading a happy life, she is very unlucky, but compared to a mother who has lost her child, she is lucky. I would have gladly switched places with her if I could have had you, my Shahdi, stay overnight with me at the hospital to keep me company, just like my friend’s daughter did for her last night. To me she is a fortunate woman to have her loving daughter and son by her side looking after her and showering her with love and tenderness. I would have gladly given up my life if you could have continued yours.
Everything in life is relative. The same event may be interpreted quite differently by different people based on their backgrounds and life experiences. I generally am not an advocate of comparing one’s life with others’, but sometimes it may be wise to do so, particularly in dire circumstances when one feels that his/her life cannot get any worse. Sometimes it helps to get a different perspective of one’s problems through the eyes of other people.
I do not know whether to thank you, the modern medical field, or both, for making my friend’s surgery a success today. I just hope you, as her guardian angel, can bargain for an extra 20+ years for my friend:-) It is ironic that on the seven-month anniversary of your passing, another person close to me, with a golden heart as big as yours, had to fight for her life. Not that I was distracted, even for a moment, from missing you, but I was simply flabbergasted at the seemingly unlimited tolerance of pain and bad luck by both myself and my friend. Is there really a limit to how much hardships one can tolerate in life? I know you thought you had reached ‘your’ limit but if you had heard the life story of my friend, it might have given you a totally different perspective on the problematic issues in your life. Alas, it is too late to tell you her story.
Today, as I was standing by my friend’s hospital bed caressing her hair to calm her frightened and anguished soul, I was thinking to myself about how lucky she was. It is very strange indeed to think of a person just diagnosed with cancer as lucky! Of course, compared to a healthy person leading a happy life, she is very unlucky, but compared to a mother who has lost her child, she is lucky. I would have gladly switched places with her if I could have had you, my Shahdi, stay overnight with me at the hospital to keep me company, just like my friend’s daughter did for her last night. To me she is a fortunate woman to have her loving daughter and son by her side looking after her and showering her with love and tenderness. I would have gladly given up my life if you could have continued yours.
Everything in life is relative. The same event may be interpreted quite differently by different people based on their backgrounds and life experiences. I generally am not an advocate of comparing one’s life with others’, but sometimes it may be wise to do so, particularly in dire circumstances when one feels that his/her life cannot get any worse. Sometimes it helps to get a different perspective of one’s problems through the eyes of other people.
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