Hello Setareh!
I just wanted to tell you how much I think about Shahdi and how much I miss her. I lay awake at night often, remembering the times we used to spend together as kids and teenagers. All the slumber parties and birthdays and Panera runs in the mornings. And although we didn't hang out much outside of school in high school, we always would have classes together and we'd always sit together and joke and laugh and try our best to pay attention, but it rarely worked when we would sit together.
I think what I took most from Shahdi was how to stand up for myself and fight for what I believe in. I always respected Shahdi so much because even though I didn't agree with her always, she would never abandon her opinions or ideas just because I didn't like them. I think as I get older, I become more and more like her as far as opinions and beliefs, however. My liberal education has definitely changed my views and I constantly think about what I would give to spend another day with Shahdi, listening to her intellect and brilliance. I feel like we'd get along now more than ever.
What I loved about Shahdi is that although we did grow apart, she always made an effort to stay my friend no matter what. She checked up on me often, and was one of the most caring people I've ever met. The last time I spoke to Shahdi (or rather didn't) was Shahdi texting me asking how I was. I remember receiving it, but being busy with work so I never got back to her. I regret so much that I shrugged it off and let that be our last interaction. I wish I could tell her I was sorry and how much I love her and I wish I could have asked how she was doing. I don't think that I had the power to change anything, but I wish that I would have at least told her how much I cared (and still do care) about her.
I think about you and Mehrdad and Arman (and of course Toby) often and I just wanted to let you know how much I loved and cherished my friendship with Shahdi. She truly was absolutely wonderful.
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